I feel like my brain expanded with my new lesson from Draw a Box this week. It was about construction, something I've learned about over the years, I understood the concept. I realized though--I still need to draw them out instead of trying to see them in my mind's eye. While I can't help but feel ashamed of that, they've been so helpful for the past few drawings. Hopefully, like learning to ink without several underdrawing passes, Someday I'll see these construction lines in my mind as I draw as well.
I decided I'll begin my long journey to Get Gud and play SF6 ranked until I get Ken's Master-rank color. I'm a happy casual--I still play in World Tour for battlepass grinding and run around to take photos. I like the arcade feel of playing 10+ rounds with a funny avatar in Battle Hub. I never bothered with rank except to get my initial ranking: Silver☆. I'm sad I'll have to leave my comforts and deal with rank anxiety.
But I feel like I deal with a different kind of anxiety: Because I'm playing with someone I can't see their funny avatar, I can't say "GGs" after, maybe even chat a bit. I don't want to be judged by my garbage gameplay. I know I'm trash. I know I'm playing Ken (though I'd rather play Ryu to finish getting his titles) I know I'm a [M]odern Ken! I can only hope the other person is cool and isn't a grump, and my gameplay didn't annoy a stranger on the internet. I'm not gloating if I accidentally take your points, I swear!
So my first goal in getting good will learn how to use replay takeover efficentently. I tend to panic a lot when I'm thrown into a new situation. So after a set if I was too panicky I'll sit in replay takeover mode and learn what to do in that newness. I won't worry about combos for now, and I won't let myself feel bad for using auto-combos. Because my hands hurt quickly I'll limit it to an hour on either Saturdays or Sundays. I might expand into more days when I feel comfortable removing time from drawing or reading.
